Did he play with me or was he genuine...HELP!!

LONG STORY

So, I’m seeing this guy...we’re both 21. We met on one of those dating apps...he seemed genuine to me. He drove half an hour to come pick me up from home for our first date and I had such a great time that day. The same day, we were talking about our past (exes) what happened with them...and what we were looking for in someone or what we liked etc.

On our second date, we watched a movie at his house and we had a bit of laugher here and there...then one thing led to another and we slept together (protected sex). He told me that I was “the first girl he did it with”...he never went to second base with his ex before me (they only did oral). Mind you, I haven’t had dick since my last relationship which was 3 years ago. I don’t move on easily. I slept over his house that night and he was very affectionate. He put my clothes in the washing and said that I “shouldn’t go home smelling like sex”. LOL He even hung my clothes out after...The same night, he jokingly said “Marry me” and I said “We’re too young, we have a lot of things to do before we can settle down”. Then he said in a serious voice “You always make me happy, your bubbly personality...I like that about you”. He didn’t even want me to leave the following morning. Anyways I left anyways....

Fast forward to yesterday night, our third date...I went to see him cause he’s flying interstate today to go see his family and friends. Last night was something else I tell you!! Bear with me while I try to explain everything....

We were watching a movie and all of a sudden he takes my hand to his bedroom. We were just about to do the deed and he stopped and asked “What are we? Fuck buddies” I responded with “I want to be with you, in a relationship. I want something long term, not just a one night stand type of thing”. We lay there for a few minutes having a serious talk...he says that he doesn’t want to hurt me (like break my heart) that he also has a sister and he would never want something like that to happen to her. He says that he could say yes to being in a relationship with me but he knows he could be controlling. Plus, he’s moving back to the state his family lives in and he’s unsure about the long distance thing. He says that it’s hard, that he tried it with his ex and he was controlling and always picked fights with her over stupid shit. He admitted that he has trust issues and is insecure (because of what happened with his ex) and maybe he could be bipolar too because one moment he could be in love and the next he would just push people away. We took the conversation outside of the bedroom...after we put our clothes back on and he kept saying sorry and he feels like he hurt me. He felt bad because now he doesn’t know what he’ll tell his family because he already told them about me (that we were dating). I just told him, not to stress over it. Apparently he said, he told his mom that I “was perfect...you’ll get along with her”...

But in all honesty, I was gutted with his response because I really liked the guy. I think he’s just too scared to commit. But he made me feel happy and we were always laughing. I respected him for being straight up though and bringing that subject up before I went ahead and slept with him the second time. He did say that we should’ve talked about it way before we slept together on our second date. That he felt like he was a jerk. We ended the conversation with him saying that I deserved the world. We mutually agreed to stay friends though. But one thing bugged me last night...I said that “since we were just friends now. We can see other people” and he goes ahead and says, “I’ll pick your husband for you” and then he laughs it off. I don’t know if I should take him seriously or just see it as a friendly banter

He told me not to cry and be sad about it but you bet I did LOL. I cried a lot this morning because I honestly thought that he was the one but that’s my fault for falling too quickly! FML

Anyways, I’m going out with my friends soon (to go watch a movie and go to some fancy restaurant and spoil myself) and then I’ll get back to being my MF single self (I don’t need a man bitch!!). I was single 3 years before I met him!! Your girl will be alright!😂

If you’ve read this far, thank you so much for reading my rant. I just wanted to tell someone because if I told my siblings, they would’ve hunted him down LOL. But thanks again for reading beautifuls!!😇