Venting..

Just needed a place to vent where no one knows me! I am very depressed rn! I have been trying to have a baby for about a year now and nothing happens! Every single day I go on my social media accounts and see a old friend from school post that they are expecting or that they just had a baby, at first I’m happy for them and a few mins later I get depressed and feel so shity because I have been trying so hard and it’s so easy for everyone else! People who don’t want kids or are shity parents are blessed enough to get pregnant so why not me!? Why can’t I be lucky enough to bring someone special into this life 😭 yes IK it is hard to be a parent but idc what I have to face to be able to become a mother! If your wondering no I have not gone to the doctors, I am to scared they will tell me it’s not possible for me. And I don’t have any friends to vent to besides my bf, it’s just so hard keeping it together! How can I get rid of this baby fever!!!???? I’m dying here!! Thanks for reading if you got to the end..