Baby Fever

I BEEN TRYING FOR 4 years and nothing 😭😭😭😭😖 I don’t think I will ever have a baby I gave up haven’t even had sex at all because wits making me so uninterested!!! I want kids !!! And nothing hurts me more than seeing my family and friends having 2 or 3 kids 😭😭😭 and I’m just watching !!!! My kids gonna grow up alone fr no cousin like I did it was 10 kids under one roof we all separated and don’t even talk anymore 🤦🏿‍♀️ anyway I want kids and seem like the more I want a baby it gets even hard and I’m not saying I only had sex with my man for that reason it’s just it makes me mad I still haven’t had one make me feel like he dont like it or me or sumn even tho he be reassuring he do 😭 and that maybe it’s because or my thyroids 😩 Lord Please Bless Me 2020 I’m tired of crying 😔 bye I had positive test before but the doctor said I was not pregnant 🤷🏿‍♀️ so maybe a atopic pregnancy 😕🤦🏿‍♀️