I’m struggling

My ex boyfriend emotionally abused me, called me names, made me cry everyday, laughed at me, never reassured me, didn’t let me break up with him, said he didn’t want to be a part of my family, I walked on eggshells 24/7 cause I was scared he would get mad

💔 I’m 17 I’m a survivor and it’s only been 7 months but everytime something happens I feel like someone’s mad at me, I went to talk to our social worker at school and she said it sounds like I have episodes of PTSD, I can’t say I do it’s a serious matter but I should seriously get it checked out, I was diagnosed with depression while dating my ex, including I went to the hospital cause I was on suicide watch, when we’d argue he’d call me a lunatic, that I should go back to the asylum, he said super hurtful things and called me a hoe for past sexual partners, only 3, and i try so hard to forget it all but there’s just some things that trigger me. Months later I am doing better and I’m starting to get serious with my new boyfriend but I’m scared, he knows about my ex and he said it hurts to hear what I’ve gone through, I’m tired and I’m upset, anti depressants made me so tired which is why I told my doctor if I can try going on without, it’s okay so far. I get angry sometimes and feel like someone is trying to argue with me but I realize people aren’t like that so I get really sad I feel like somethings wrong maybe I’m not ready, I have found many ways to cope. I’ve been trying to find help for so long ☹️