Hopeless

I am feeling so hopeless right now. I just relapsed after being clean for 2 months and 10 days which is the longes I have been clean since I started. I just don’t just what to do. I have been to my therapy since early November and I think my parents think that I am better now. But I’m not. I don’t know what to say to them and I don’t want to leave my bedroom at the moment. I just don’t know what to sa