VENT: Feeling like everything is going downhill 😔

I’ve been with my boyfriend for 4 years and we have two kids together. I’m still exclusively breastfeeding still and everything just disgust me. I have literally ZERO sex drive. I don’t really want to be touched at all. And today he got upset with me because I bought pasta sauce from a dollar tree because he wanted me to make spaghetti for him and and then told him he’s picky and he was like I’m not. And like 10 minutes later he sends me a long paragraph saying that how I treat him like shit and how he feels unloved and that i don’t pay attention to him and that I’m always on my phone.

** Whenever he’s driving he ALWAYS has his music on full blast and I can’t even talk to him.

**He sleeps in and I’m up with the kids I get that he gets off super late but not sleeping in until like 11.

** I always complain about him not picking up after himself or wash the his own dishes. ( Mind you I always wash dishes after I eat )

** I do his laundry ( which he would tell me that he will do it but his laundry pile ends looks like a tree and it BUGS ) and sometimes later complains that his stuff shrunk.

I love him but I feel like I’m walking on a rope.