attached?

baby’s father is pushing for an abortion which breaks my heart because i’m not doing that. he thinks that i’m crazy because i’m attached to something that’s so small, but to me that’s my child that i created with someone i love. he says it’s prevention but it’s not. prevention would’ve been birth control, condoms, or a plan b! i’m not crazy to love something that’s mine. i’m not crazy to feel every pinch and cramp and pressure and see it as my body creating something beautiful, my body stretching to grow a life. i’m not that far along, but i still love my baby. i will always love my kid no matter what, and i can’t help that there’s an instant connection they’re literally growing inside of me. and he doesn’t understand that i feel connected and i immediately am filled with love and happiness. he keeps saying i’m being unfair and i keep telling him he can walk away and i won’t bother him or ask for any money or anything. him and i both know that i could do it alone, of course i don’t want to, but i don’t want to hear my whole pregnancy to get rid of it or for him to regret his child. there’s really no question or anything i just need to rant because i feel like nobody else understands how hurtful it is to be told to get an abortion because none of my friends have been pregnant.