I have a 9 month old. I need to go back to work so we can move out from my in laws. we are tight on budget and I know we need cash. But I don't feel like leaving my baby. We don't have enough to send him to a daycare

And MIL is a loud and messy person, who doesn't respect my parenting. She hardly does anything for my baby and tells everyone how she only takes care of him, she's that sort. I'm a full time mum and have been doing every for my son. Till I save money I don't have the daycare option so have to leave him with her. She is willing to keep him. I don't have any other family here to help me.

Another reason I need to work is to support my parents. They live in another country and are financially struggling.

I was once a very ambitious person now I don't want to leave the the house and my child. Im struggling with anxiety and feel always stressed. I can't seem to motivate myself. Neeed kind words of motivation plesss