Question

I did something in my past that I’m really ashamed of. It was before I was a Christian and before I was walking with the Lord. I have asked for forgiveness for my sins, and I have confessed this to the Lord. I know that I am forgiven and that my slate is wiped clean by the blood of Jesus. However, I didn’t tell my husband about this thing in my past. I lied about it to him when I was not a Christian to him. I used to have borderline personality disorder so I use to lie a lot and he knows this. I have since gotten help for it and I have also asked for forgiveness from the sin of lying, but I haven’t told my husband the truth about it and it’s been years. It is not something that affects our daily lives and it is something that wouldn’t really serve a purpose in telling him. What I mean by that is I don’t think he needs to know about it. I don’t think he would want to know about it. And I think he would honestly not know how to process it. It’s a past sexual sin. He knows that I have been with other people besides him when I wasn’t a Christian but he doesn’t know details and this would be more of like a detail type thing.

Do I need to tell him? Is it a sin to not tell him? I just feel so ashamed and so dirty.

My other question is how do I deal with the shame? I know and believe that there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus but I feel held back by my shame. I sometimes feel like I can’t come before God because Satan attacks me with the shame of my past. How do I move past this?