Need some prayers please

I never hardly ask for anything or prayers. I try to keep my feeling and hard times to myself. I know I can talk to my mom for anything but sometimes it's hard.. I got a loving boyfriend we been together about 4 years now it's been about an year since we opened our own business. And it's goin great. We rent a house it's alright it's over 100 years old and I get so aggravated with it because one it ain't ours, I want our own home a place that feels like home and that we can pay off. Right now if I wanna wash clothes I have to go out side hook the washer up to a water hose just to do that. I don't mind untill winter time because I can't wash clothes. Over top of that I want a little family so bad!! And this house and no place to have a baby running around at all. I got a nephew that just turned 1 and I don't even want him to be in our house because it just ain't a place I want my kids to be. And with starting a new business (is a small town bar and a family restaurant) we don't got the money to go out and get a a nice house or land to put a double wide on. I'm ready for a home and a family, I have always always worked for what I want and never ask for anything. Growing up if I wanned something I had to work for it and pay for it. My sisters ask for what they want and mom and dad would always get it for them. All I ever wanted was a nice home, some land of our own and a loving little family, but it just feels like can't even get that.... And when ever I try and talk to someone on how I feel I can't help but tear up and start crying because it's just a touchy subject for me..