I’m dreading this.

AF is coming soon. It’s time to test. I’m dreading this, I know it’s going to be negative. It always is.. after work last night, I cried on my drive home begging God to let me get that big fat positive, to let me do the ONE thing I feel is my purpose. I was meant to be a mama.. I’m really dreading this BFN I’m going to get when I test. I’m not ready for the tears when I do finally get that visit from AF. I’m not ready, it was supposed to be my month. I’m dreading this. 😭💔💔