Cremation

Not sure were this post belongs,My aunt on oct 31 2019 passed away. Im dealing with it the best i can i was very close to her. And on top of that i been lucky my whole life and had every one in my family till now. My mom got her cremated the part went to her apartment to her mother and her part went to me including she made the necklace for me. She in a box in her urn. I want to take her out i want to wear her but i just cant bring myself to it idk why.. how do i open her. Any advice?