For me it’s so hard to date because I was in a abusive relationship for 4 years and this happened 5 years ago, so it’s really hard for me to open my heart and fall in love or at least fall for someone. I don’t get me wrong I’ve dated in the past 5 years but I never liked them enough to actually have a heartbreak.

I met this guy two weeks ago and he said he WANTED a serious relationship, and I already knew him from High School he’s always had long term relationship and generally is a good guy. So I thought I could let myself open up and fall for him. We started hanging on A LOT during these two weeks, I thought things was about to get official and I started getting strong feelings for him. We already acted like a couple, he’s clingy and always wanted me over and always wanted to cuddle and kiss.

I spent the night on Wednesday and things was great, we danced around his kitchen and played board games. We kissed and cuddled and watched movies and things got really heated and we ended up having sex. He already knew about my past abusive relationship because it’s a small town so you literally know everything. We ended up having sex and I haven’t even had any for the past 3 years because I don’t want to be USED. So the next day I went home and it was sorta eating at my mind about what we were, so I texted him and asked. He totally changed his mind about having a real relationship, that he needed more time. I’m so heartbroken right now all I can do is cry. 😔😔