Have you ever thought about what would happen if your SO suddenly passed .? Do you ever get scared if you won’t be able to afford living on your own or have no where to go or maybe no car to get around in. Honestly my worst fear is if something happened to him not only did I lose my best friend but I will lose everything else an my daughter will have to stay with someone until I get on my feet again somehow. Honestly I cannot stand being a stay at home mom it gives me anxiety. Recently I got into a car wreck so now we only have 1 car which is my so’s car. His payments are like $500 && although that doesn’t seem like much but to an unemployed adult it is an arm an a leg , also he makes like & $1400/week on a good week with overtime at my last job I was lucky to see $900 an that’s biweekly. Also I have been applying to jobs an haven’t got any luck so far so that made my anxiety even worst. I sit here a lot an think to myself my daughter does not deserve this she doesn’t deserve a mom who can’t provide for her an it breaks me so much to feel like my world has just shattered completely around me. I quit my job when I was 4 months pregnant it was a liability to work at my job an I didn’t wanna risk losing my baby. I stayed unemployed because I didn’t have anyone to watch her I don’t have family anymore they all passed away & her dads side of the family are all tweakers. So now add that on to everything else that leaves no car , no babysitter , no job , no money , no where to live. I’m trying to get everything set now I want to work I want to make money I’ll rent out a room if I have to I don’t care or I’ll find roommates whatever it takes but the longer it’s taking me the more anxiety I have been getting an it has gotten to a point where sometimes the thought alone messes with my breathing an I can’t help but uncontrollably cry I’m a mess outside an inside I have always had a job an my own car an just figured it out I’ve even slept in my car a few times but now that I have my daughter it’s horrible I feel helpless an like ive let her down already before anything has happened. She is 1yr & 4months & the older she is getting the harder it’s getting. Rn we are looking for a house to rent an eventually we will buy our first house but I can’t help but think about all the negative stuff an the “ what if’s”. We are staying in a room currently we were just saving up to get a better place just us 3 once we leave here I don’t wtf is gonna happen cause once we leave there is no coming back if shit gets rough.