Just a thought..

I'm finally at peace with myself and the fact that I'm going through this pregnancy alone, but why should he get a say?I know hes just trying to use my baby against me, he was never there when I found out or through the whole 7 months of it, and he still wants nothing to do with anything, I sent him updates about my appointments and ultrasound photos and asked If he wanted to name her, I tried all these months to keep him involved and then he told me m, his exact words were "leave me the f*** alone or I'll get someone to tell at your fave to leave me alone" so yeah I've been hurt about it but I finally feel at peace with it, like I cant force him but once he heard I was trying to do the adoption route from his sister who I still talk to, he said no.. it's not happening then he blocked me again... like shouldn't this be a big deal? It's a baby, it's her life, and so far it's been nothing but arguements, we tried to work it out but things almost got violent when he got drunk.. so it escalated pretty quickly and obviously I left him but still try keep him apart of it.. I just feel like if hes making the choice to not make any effort then shouldn't I be the one to be able to say if my baby can be adopted by a very nice family who just got married and found out they couldn't have babies of their own? He made his choice after months of me begging him to be apart of it every single part of the way and now all of a sudden he wants a say in something, when we had many months to discuss everything, we didn't even shop for the baby or talk names or do anything or make any decisions together about the baby and she is due in 10 weeks.. I just needed to rant sorry if I seem selfish or ungrateful I understand if anyone has anything bad to say about me