I’m such an impatient mom😞

It is my worst and ugliest trait first and foremost. Being impatient. I get so impatient with my 2 year old and I feel awful. Sometimes I feel like he tests me and other times I’m just being a jerk. It’s just hard because my husband does NOT help discipline our son. He will let our son do something over and over again that he shouldn’t. So it really takes a toll on me because it’s not okay and I always have to take charge or explain to him it’s not okay. I know 2s in itself is hard but it really stresses me out. It annoys me and I annoy myself. My therapist has explained to me that she sees me as a perfectionist and I get rather upset when I can’t control a situation. So when my toddler doesn’t listen, I have a hard time at being calm.

I feel really bad and also really disappointed. It’s extremely frustrating. And i don’t want my son thinking it’s okay to be quick to get upset so easily like I do. Ugh.