Father in law sending dating app links

I’m not sure how to feel right now. My husband and I haven’t been living together for over a year. We are still married but had to work through some difficulties.

He has wanted a baby for awhile. We lost a baby in the first year of our marriage. Things went properly after.

It feels we have been in a sort of coasting where we are one another and spend time

together. We have not been able to conceive. I have two children from a previous marriage and I’m quite busy with work. Things have been a little frustrating because of the virus and being apart. I was mostly worried for his behalf be he is older than me, very high risk and wasn’t taking it seriously. He’s complained a few times about not being able to see one another but we always end on a positive note. He sends me loving text all through the day. I’m less inclined to do such a thing because I am not always sure where we are at.

Anyway. This afternoon I used his old iPad because I wanted to complete Easter orders for the kids and saw right away he had a text from his dad with a link to a Russian dating site. They are Russian. I’ve never felt accepted in his family because I’m American and let me tell you, they have a different expectation for women and family. I didn’t know this until months of being involved. My husband seemed very very open minded and all about respecting women.

I know he is very close to his father so I wonder what he could be telling him. I thought his dad liked me at least. I feel

really sad and confused. My husband said he is invested in me and our family and that his dad is just being stupid, that he’s old...

I was clearly upset and while things have been on edge for awhile feel like maybe this is a sign to let things go. It breaks my heart so much. I just don’t feel loved right now. My husband says to think positive and not get paranoid. He said he talked to his dad this past week about his frustrations. About not seeing me or feeling accepted or fitting in with my kids. That he is getting older and doesn’t have kids. This just makes me feel like cattle or something, like garbage and replaceable.