Love him but idk...

I do love my man with all my heart but I feel like I’m constantly torturing myself in my head . I used to be the girl that would sleep in till noon and then stay up all night with her friends. Now I’m the girl that has sleeping issues and no friends. I’ve convinced myself that my boyfriend is always doing something that’s going to hurt me. He’ll laugh at something on his phone and I have an honest panic attack thinking that someone sent him something and is entertaining him. If he wakes up before me in the morning I’m scared that he’s in the living room watching porn so I immediately wake up with adrenaline and anxiety and come out even if I am tired. He wakes up every day at 6:45 for his job and right now he is working from home and for some reason I wake up at that same time to even though I don’t need to. It’s torture and it’s all from me over worrying. Every time I log into Facebook and see a girl post something I go through the Likes to see if my boyfriend liked it... I can’t do this any more y’all. I almost feel psychotic. Like I’m living in my head. I have seem to lost all the connections with my girlfriends and I noticed it’s because every time I go out without him the whole time I’m worried about my man and just texting him telling him I can’t wait to be home with him. Does anyone else have any of these issues? Or know someone that does? How do I truly heal and work on myself?