Trust issues

Hi. So, I have SEVERE trust issues and anxiety in relationships.... I've been with my current boyfriend for almost 2 years, I've known him for a lifetime. He's literally given me no reason what-so-ever to not trust him, in all the years I've known him, he's the only one to never hurt me & at times, he truly was my savior.... He knows I've got these issues, he knows they're now directed towards him, he also knows that in my rational brain, I do not ever believe he's doing things he shouldn't be. He's unbelievably understanding and works with me every step of the way.... He knows I've been badly hurt in the past by family issues with cheating and literally every boyfriend I've ever had but he fully accepts me and my issues and is always more than happy to talk with me about them. He truly is amazing. ❤️

I'm writing this because the issues are back. I fully trust him, my rational brain is still in tact. But my broken brain is going full crazy lady and today I realized I wasn't eating because of my worries.

He's been on his phone and computer A LOT lately, he got laid off because of covid-19 & has been actively looking for a job and that's taking up a lot of his time... But, given the problems I have, him being on his phone all the time and somewhat distant because of stress and how hard he's looking for a job, my brain wanders and goes to dark places.

He does make me aware of the women he connects with for jobs or just as a simple connection business wise just to help ease my mind, he never tries to hide his phone or what he's doing on it or anything like that, makes me aware of texts from random numbers.... He does little things like that because he knows I have these problems.

But, given his already present stress and the stress me being crazy would bring, should I even mention this to him or just do my best to let it go?

I dont want to stress him out more than he already is and I know damn well this is just my mental issues making me believe things that are untrue but part of me really needs to talk about this to him or to someone that can help & the other part of me just really wants it to go away.

I dont know what to do 😅