Postpartum depression and anxiety

So I just had my baby and dealing with pp depression and anxiety, and my ob just told me I was his worst patient through out his whole career that I annoyed him with my calls when I felt something wrong even though all those times I was right and did need medical attention, he blamed my anxiety on me; when I found out I was pregnant I knew I suffered from anxiety and wanted to get a ob who understood and had patience on patients with mental illness and I talked to him about my diagnosed anxiety and he had told me he understood and knew how to handle a patient with a mental illness, but now he goes and tells me that I’m too much to handle even though I only called about 5 times on call my whole pregnancy, I don’t know he made me feel like I hated myself and that I was broken and that I was the worst person and I couldn’t be fixed, he also told me he didn’t think there was any other medication that could help I’ve only tried 2 with him so far, I’m never going back to him, it’s hard dealing with this right after having a baby where I already feel emotional