I feel so selfish

I’m currently 13+2 today and I am so happy and loving the fact that I am pregnant and my baby is growing and I love them so much already. Last year we had an early loss in June before we even had a scan and a missed miscarriage in November at 8 weeks which seemed to hit so much harder after seeing their heart beating on a screen it was so real and we lost the baby, I had a d&c and I was emotionally destroyed. I listened to a lot of sadder songs and things relating to miscarriage to help heal and now I am pregnant and everything is going amazingly and I couldn’t be happier but today and some other random days I just start crying and mourning the loss of my baby from November and I feel so so selfish because I shouldn’t, I have this beautiful little angel growing inside of me and I just feel so selfish for being upset like I shouldn’t be crying I should be happy :( has anyone had feelings like this? How did you deal with them?