I really can’t deal with my relationship right now

Every night he comes to bed with me and we usually don’t go to bed until 12 or 1, and if I try to initiate sex he declines (any time of the day for that matter). So usually I don’t even try anymore but he knows I always want it (he knows I have a high sex drive) and he waits until he thinks I’m asleep and then he gets up with his phone and goes into the living room. Sometimes I get up and go in there to see what he’s doing and he’s just watching dumb shit on tv.

He works during the week and so after work he always comes home complaining he’s tired and barely even talks to me.

Why is this my life.