Still TTC one year after Miscarriage

Hello,

I guess I just need to vent. I was pregnant with my third child and miscarried on Father’s Day last year. It absolutely broke me. I gained an enormous amount of weight. Spiraled in this black hole of depression. We have been actively TTC since then. It’s been almost a year and no luck. Am I cursed? Does God hate me? I just feel like such a failure. I wanted to have another baby close in age to my second born because him and my oldest are 6 years apart. I guess I just needed to vent and cry 😭