Advice

My dad raped me and abused and drugged me for 10 years and I’m a fuck up and a mistake but I know that’s a long time and I have tried to get help and I tried to runaway I even tried to get put in the system none of it worked a month a go my dad raped me and he did it inside me later that month I miss my period I was sick I was throwing up and shit and I told my mom I think I’m pregnant she didn’t believe me I told her I was raped she told me to stop lying so I went out and got a test and it was positive I told my dad and then I told my mom and my dad told her I was lying my mom left it alone I was starting to get worse and today he beat my up until my baby was dead and he almost didn’t stop I was almost dead I don’t know why I post this I just needed to get it out