Sexuality

Please don’t judge/hate on me - I am only asking genuine questions because I’m a little lost and I have no close friend to talk to about this.

I’m a 26 year old woman and I don’t really know if I’m bisexual. Basically, I am attracted to women and their bodies but I’ve never been in love with a woman. I feel the opposite for men where men’s bodies sometimes gross me out but I’ve been in more “emotional” relationships with men before. I’ve only had sexual relationships with women that didnt last long and I want to try to have a serious relationship with a woman to really understand being bisexual. But everytime i am honest about it, women get mad at me saying I’m too old to be experiencing and I should have this already figured out and that they don’t want to be an experiment.

Any advice on how to approach the topic? Am I something else on the spectrum? 😕 Please help!