Guilt and sex/trying to feel “pure.”

Who cares if I have sex. Who really cares. We are all just a vessel and who cares how many partners I have? I am almost 23 years old and have had 6 partners so far because I’m so afraid of increasing my body count. Even though I crave sex and I don’t have a boyfriend so I just avoid doing it Who tf cares anymore? Why do I feel so guilty about what I want to do with my body? As long as I use condoms and practice safe sex why should it matter! I go back in forth all day in my head, I’m so worried about what my future husband will think about my body count, but it doesn’t matter!! I’m so sick of feeling guilty it’s getting so tiring!!! 🙄