I think I’ve fallen for him

I’m not very happy but I’m in love. I feel happy around him and he still gives me butterflies even after five months of dating but the distance is suffocating. I just want to be around him more but I can’t... our parents are keeping us apart. I don’t want to be in love yet. I’m a kid. I don’t want to get my heart broken. I don’t want to be tied down so early.

But I want to stay with him and risk the pain. I want to see him completely. His flaws, his habits, his hobbies and traumas and everything. I want to be so close to him that I know every nook and cranny of his personality and his body. I want to be his support and him to be mine. He’s the only person I’ve personally come out to. When my dog ran away I went to him and he calmed me down and my dog was found soon after. He’s so cute and sweet and I can’t stand always missing him. 🥺🥺🥺