Bad things keep happening

2020 has been a terrible year and it’s only July. I just want to have one good thing happen.

1. Miscarriage in Jan

2. Got a promotion in March. Was supposed to start in August, found out a week ago my district eliminated all specialists and coaches positions.

3. They’re putting all 50 of us on an involuntary list and we will pick from open jobs. I will be near the bottom of the list. (I know I still have a job but school starts in a week)

4. They’re making us go back to in person teaching

5. I got a call that I tested hpv positive AND have HSIL from my latest pap. My colposcopy is next week Thursday. I’m so scared. I wonder if this has been why we can’t get pregnant/keep a pregnancy.

Oh yeah. And the pandemic.

It’s hard to be positive right now. I’m just so sad and mad and scared.