Emotions

Today I broke. This virus and pregnancy and just life building up left me to have a complete meltdown because my dogs got into something and needed to be taken to the ER. I have anxiety and depression that’s treated with medication and it works amazing. But it seems as the third trimester goes on it’s breaking through the cracks. I couldn’t stop crying, I wanted to scream and break something. The only thing holding me together was the fact that I needed to keep it together for my son because he doesn’t deserve to see me in that state. What hurts the most is the fact that I had nobody to talk to or even just hear my irrational thoughts and tell me it’s okay. I have my husband but sometimes it would be nice to be able to call my mom or a best friend.. but I have neither. I’m ready to not be pregnant so I can have control over myself again.