Did I make the right decision? (Leghnthy)

I’ve officially left my ex after 3 years. He cried and begged for me for hours. I cried, but stayed firm and stuck to my decision.

We’ve been through A LOT. My ex abused me for a while. It certainly did stop though, but the arguments didn’t. He would breakup with me and kick me out of his moms house at any time of the day or night when we’d have the most dumbest arguments. It was so repetitive, and we have a child which makes it unfortunate that I get kicked out and I have to take our baby with at unnecessary times. Our arguments has cost me to miss work at times. I struggled on watching our baby on my own. Buying all essentials. I supported him so much. It just seemed like he didn’t care. He would control on who I could talk to. What I could wear. When I was allowed to be out with my friends.

Some of that kind of chilled out eventually but not fully. I told him he can’t just constantly breakup with me and ask me back whenever h pleases. He knows my life situation, and that I don’t have a stable home. My family is just as toxic as our relationship, but I mean like they still help me. I’m still young in my early 20’s, so I haven’t moved out yet, and I really depended on my ex to get us a home since he said he would, but never did. He barley worked or kept a job.

Recently he broke up with me and asked me to leave after an argument we had the night before. I didn’t talk to him the whole day while I was at work and when I went back home to him because of how upset I was. I pour out my feelings about a situation just so he knows how I felt and don’t want to feel and he gets mad about it. So just because I didn’t speak to him. He just didn’t want to be with me. But he knew how I felt already. So I left, and went back home. My parents were so mad at me, Because they knew I shouldn’t have gone back to him again for the 100th time to begin with. I caught covid. I left our child with him, but my parents didn’t like the idea and kicked me out because he should have been the one to take care of me instead of constantly throwing me out to the streets, so now I pay the price with my parents. Eventually they let me come back home.

But since then 2 weeks passed by my ex has asked for me back, and I have denied him for good. It hurt so much. I love him dearly, but he’s never happy when I’m around. He hates my bitching apparently. He held off on getting our little family a home. Said he would marry me in June and never happened. He sounded hurt and like he really was going to prove he could do better, but how many tries does that take? I enjoy my freedom now, but I do miss him. Did I make the right choice?:(