I’m in a long distance relationship, have been for almost a year and a half now. We tell each other everything. About a week ago, my friend who’s married messaged me about her husband liking all these thirst trap pictures (revealing pictures) of other girls on Instagram. And she told me about how she feels worthless and they look nothing like her so how could he really find her attractive, etc. and I just reassured her that they’ve been together for almost 9 years. They’re married, they have 2 gorgeous kiddos, he’s seen her at her best AND her worst, and still loves her more than anything. And she felt better. Around the same time a couple days prior, my boyfriend and I got into an argument about me posting NSFW pictures on tumblr, he has a blog too but he just doesn’t post personal pictures (my face was never in them, no worries) and he ended up telling me after our argument and a couple days of not talking that it makes him feel like he’s not good enough, it makes him feel insecure. So I deleted all of them and apologized because I never ever want him to feel that way. Cut to a couple days ago, I missed him a lot so I went on his Instagram to look at pictures, and I ended up on his following list and saw he was following his ex. I shouldn’t have, but I clicked on it. Then her most recent picture, and he had liked it. Scrolled, and he had liked all of them. And I was like 🤷🏻‍♀️ I mean, she is really pretty. I would like them too, I get it. But I wondered if it was just hers that he liked like that, or if it was all the people he followed. So I looked at a guys, same thing. I clicked on another girls profile not knowing who she was, and she had pictures in a bra and panties, sticking her butt out, and he liked it. I looked at all the other revealing pictures and he liked them too.

I send him nudes all the time. So this just makes me feel like my pictures aren’t enough for him. That he feels the need to follow these girls to get off or look at something he really wants. It just hurts. And he knows these girls personally, these are people he’s gone to school with. So it hurts even more. And I don’t know how to bring it up because it’s my fault for looking into it. But whenever he calls me cute or says he loves me or that I’m the one, it just feels like he’s lying. It makes me angry that he had the nerve to tell me how my pictures made him feel, but he goes and likes other girls pictures. And to me, this isn’t the same as porn. He has no chance with pornstars, they don’t know who he is. But with these people, he knows them and can talk to them whenever he wanted. I don’t know what to do. I’ve asked multiple guy friends and they’ve all said to talk to him about it, but I just don’t know how. I know if I did he’d probably delete all of them to make me happy, but I don’t want that. I don’t want to be that girl. I just wish he didn’t in the first place 🥺