I need to rant!

I'm so annoyed right now.. yesterday I had weird symptoms, was shaking, sweating and was really hot despite the cool weather and fan on me (you may have seen my post from yesterday asking if I should be concerned).. I noticed my heart was really pumping so I measured my HR and it was averaging between 117 and 123 at resting.. usually its low 80's at resting so I called the hospital and explained, they asked me to come in..

They done bloods, took my BP, checked for UTI among other tests.. after a million questions, 500ml of fluids through a canula, and 6 hours at the hospital, they came in and said they don't know whats going on because everything came back normal.. they said to just come in if I feel the same way again and they will monitor my heart for abnormalities.

I was reading my notes this morning and this doctor wrote that it is possibly due to anxiety?! She has got to be joking right? We were sat there talking, laughing.. she asked me if I had any worries about the pregnancy and birth, if I had any anxieties at all.. her literal words were "you don't look or seem like you have any anxiety but is there anything that is bothering you?" To which I responded "not at all, I don't suffer from anxiety and have no worries at all"..

This is bothering me because I've just come again from the hospital as they want to monitor baby daily as he hasn't been moving great.. and again, my HR was high. As I was leaving, the midwife says to me in relation to my HR "try to relax, I know it's difficult at this point but try your best".. I AM RELAXED! I feel like now they're not going to take my high HR serious and will just tell me to relax to sooth these anxieties that do not exist! Ugh!

Sorry, rant over.. I'm just so mad at them..