I want my Independence

I'm a stay at home mom and my son is almost 2. I posted a few weeks ago about my husband being stingy with money and not letting me spend money even within reason m I've talked to him about it and we have an understanding. That's not the issue anymore.

However a lot of people told me I should get a job. The whole reason I haven't is because pretty much any money I'd make would be going to childcare so there wouldn't be much of a point.

Since then, my husband's schedule has changed and my mother's has as well. My husband has Sundays and Mondays off. My mom has Mondays and Tuesdays off.

Out of nowhere my old boss called me and asked if I'd like to work 2 half days a week and I could choose which days I wanted.

I got so excited because I really want to get out and earn some money again. I want to feel normal. I want to be able to buy things without feeling guilty even though I shouldn't feel guilty period.

My husband said he'd watch our son while I work on Mondays, no problem.

However my mom after telling me she will help whenever I need it is now saying she doesn't want to watch him for those 4 hours for me so I can work.

I feel like I have no independence. I have to rely on others for a ride, I have to rely on my husband for money. I can't do anything I want unless I make arrangements for my son. Like he's only my responsibility. And the only person it really affects is me when there's no one to watch him because it's always me having to cancel my plans. I'm just asking for a few hours out of the house and to make some money. I'm not necessarily asking for advice. There's nothing I can really do about it. I'm just venting I guess.