i want my boyfriend back :/

my boyfriend and i broke up a couple of days ago because he was fed up with my lack of communication. i tend to get in my head a lot and think negative things and because of that i start to distance myself and get quiet and it bothers him. well the other day it happened again and he said that if this is how it’s gonna be then he can’t be with me anymore, then proceeded to tell me about how he’s been unhappy for a couple of months now cuz of how i handle my emotions. that stung a lot. i’ve been in a dark place for a while and recently i went to therapy but my therapist stopped replying to me so i’m on the look for a new one. him and i are still talking like normal except all the pet names and the flirting but i really want to make this work. and part of me feels like this is something that can be fixed on both ends but i also don’t want to force him to stay. it seems like he does still love me or maybe i’m just taking a different approach cuz he’s still texting me and calls me. i don’t know i’m in so much pain rn and i want this to work out so bad and i know it can but i’m just too scared to tell him i want it to work out. i know that i have issues with communicating and it’s something i’m trying to fix but i want him to be patient with me considering the fact that we’ve only been together for almost a year and i’ve been like this since i was 5 and i’m 20 now. and sometimes it doesn’t seem like he is patient with me. but before this week everything was great between us we were really healthy with one another and he told me he was happy to be together he even called me a blessing in his life:/. he’s always talking abt how i changed his life for the better and recently we started going out on dates again since our schedules arent so busy anymore and we have had very emotionally intimate moments together. honestly i know i can be a lot to handle sometimes but like i just don’t know why he said he’s been feeling unhappy. should i just straight up tell him i want to make things work? i feel like i screwed things up big time /: