Hardest time of my life..

I recently found I was pregnant acutally due June 12th (my youngest daughter birthday shes 3) my husband had a child (ive raised her since 2 shes 14 now) and i had a son who is 10 now. We have two together a 7 year old and a 3 year old.thinks have been rocky even before the news of a confirmed pregnancy mind you I was on the depo!. He blames me for getting pregnant and I planned this I set him up for this to happen (mind you we have been rocky for the past year) he wants me to get an abortion. I CANT face myself to do so. I recently looked at a 4 bedroom house for 725 a month everything included!! I'm planning on moving out. I'm scared shitless 5 kids on my own😭 a single mom of 5 anyone else start over with 5 kids? Happy endings advice anything. I'm leaving everything ive known for the last 10 years. My house everything!(I'm taking all my belongings inside)