Breaking point...

Oh god, I’m just venting because god knows I can’t stop crying the last few days.

So maybe a week ago I let my husband know that I’m no longer happy, that I feel alone even though we sleep in the same bed.

Nothings the same anymore, I’m always doing everything alone. And when I ask if he can do something with me he gets bothered or he’ll say he’s tired. He has a son whom I love very much. And the last month I’ve been planing a birthday party for him.. and my husband picked up extra hours at work to help me, and stuff..

well yesterday I asked if he could get home a little early so we could get some stuff done and ready for the day and he said yeah that he would come home maybe 30 minute past his usual time. Okay, well three hours past his usual time he gets home and smells like alcohol and I get really upset. And he said that I’m always overreacting at everything and that it’s not a big deal. But I feel very let down. Because he told me he would work on our relationship but it feels like he’s just pushing me away even more...

Idk what to do...

I know this isn’t okay, and I deserve better.. but I love him when it’s good, and I love my step son so much