Lonely - Part 2

So I posted yesterday that I was lonely. Thanks PMS for making it worse. 😩 Anyway, as suspected hubby said we’d sit down for steak and salad (his choice of Cesar which I cannot stand) and he goes and eats something else and doesn’t wait for me to finish cooking. Then puts his dish in the sink and starts to walk away. I finally said “I can’t do this anymore. We need to talk.” And I told him while tearing up, that I followed our doctors advice in giving him space (his parents are much older and narcissistic so she recommended him to play games to relax, only what was 1-2 times a week is an every night/weekend thing). I said I did what the doctor said but now it’s effecting me. I’ve asked before, you say well spend time together, then we don’t. I’m lonely. Like truly lonely. The only adult interaction I get is at our daughters daycare pickup with 1 other mom, my parents, and an occasional work conference call - but even that’s all business. It feels like I have a roommate, not a husband.

So I asked for 1 night a week. 1 night, dinner and talking (about 1.5 hours total). So we sat down last night and he attempted to stay off his phone but he didn’t quite succeed. I guess close enough for now but something we’ll have to work on for a while.

2020 sucks and I’m over it. I’ve tried communicating with other moms that I’d love to take the kids to the park to play. But most families don’t want to because of Covid which I understand. This is just lonely times.

My siblings aren’t reaching out. I’ve been texting them for months but it’s always 1 sided so I’ve given up. My mom keeps trying to say I’m depressed and should take anti depressants, which is something my doctor says I don’t need - I need to communicate with people my own age. Like go get a cup of coffee or meet up at Target with a friend! When I do that once every 2 weeks I feel great! But haven’t done it for months... I don’t remember the last time that happened. February??

So if I ever win the lottery, I’ll open up a women’s facility where ladies of all backgrounds can come together and do activities. Because being a mom can be lonely sometimes. Especially in the middle of a pandemic. ✌🏼