Honest answer from 2nd time Mommies

Were any of you mommas depressed with the fact that when you gave birth to your 2nd child, it wasn’t the same exciting “never felt this type of way” feeling as it was with your first born? When i gave birth to my first, I was in the highest high I have ever felt in my life! Everything was amazing- I felt soooo special- like the whole universe was mine! I always told everyone, I want to have one more child just so i can feel that feeling AGAIN.

Flash forward to 3 years later, I give birth to my second and I am totally numb to everything and to her. Where is that high that I was anticipating to feel like the first time around?! 🥺🥺 I could not believe that I did not feel the same way the second time around. I thought you were supposed to *feel* the same about all of your kids. This had me desperately missing and longing for the birth of my first born and that *feeling* that I came to realize only was a once in a lifetime kind of thing.

Because of this, I became depressed following the birth of my second child. No one had ever told me I would feel different second time around compared to the first. My expectations were so high and I felt like I failed my second child somehow.

I struggled with PPD for the whole first year. It wasnt until my second born was almost 12 months that I decided to go the medication route. Honestly that saved me and I have been feeling better. But I hate that I didn’t get that feeling for her right as she was born. Have any other moms gone through this