Postpartum Body Comparisons

Hey!

So, I just need to vent a bit. Nothing bad really, just feeling so down on myself.

I'm 11 weeks pp and am 12 lbs up from my pre pregnancy weight- which was about 20ish lbs higher than I really wanted to be- but down 38lbs from when my baby was born. I was very athletic and muscular, but I have lost it due to a concussion, then pregnancy, COVID, and now breastfeeding. About a year of not being able to be in the gym now with everything together.

I was looking at people I have gone to school with that gave birth very close to when I did and they already look like they did before they got pregnant! I have maybe a 2 week head start and I still feel like I look like I gave birth somewhat recently.

I have tried to cut calories and walk more, do body weight exercises, but then my supply drops. I was pumping 30oz a day plus a few nursing sessions and now I'm down to 22oz plus nursing sessions. My hubby wants me to stop worrying, he wants me to be healthy and to continue eating more to be able to keep on breastfeeding.

I just dont know. I feel embarrassed? They were able to not look bloated and bigger. I don't even know how to describe the emotion but its definitely not upset at it. My body made my perfect little boy, it's feeding him.

And the silliest thing is, I feel confident and okay most of the time, it's only when I see pictures other people take that get me down. Like what I see in my minds eye doesn't equate what everyone else sees...

Does anyone else feel similar?