Lost connection

My husband and I have been together for 6 years... I really think we only made it work because I got pregnant. I feel like I’m just stuck in the cycle of wanting to stay and wanting to leave. I find myself wanting to reach out to and old friend because I still feel a connection after so many years apart... but I also feel a connection with my husband... What do I do😭

For the one who commented I need to work on my marriage... I have tried. I can sit down and talk to him and behavior changes for maybe a day or two... then he’s back to his same old actions.. I try to flourish him with kindness and love, but I don’t get it back. I’ve tried looking into our love languages, biblical relationship therapy books, and more. I’ve spoken with his parents about how we just aren’t working and they just tell me it’s my own problem. I’d LOVE for it to work out with my husband!!!! But I can’t drain myself into something that the other person isn’t willing to also work for.