TW—sexual

When I was little (5-7) my older sister (11m older) would touch me and kiss me. Saying we’re “having sex” I remember her putting her tongue in my mouth and fingers inside me. She would always do this. I never told on her but I knew it wasn’t something we were supposed to do. I would just lay there.. not knowing what to do while she did those things. She eventually just stopped doing it. We’re adults now and act like nothing ever happened. She later came out as bi.

We were both abused at one point in our childhood. So I’m not sure if it’s from that, her knowing she was attracted to girls.. or what. There’s a trend on tiktok where girls are exposing their stories from when they were little. Apparently they had a sexual experience with a girl at a young ago too. BUT... they all said it happened once and it was usually the neighbor girl & just a peck on the lips. This definitely doesn’t feel the same & I still feel weird about it.. I definitely don’t think it’s “normal”