Pee’d instead of squirting husband is disgusted

I’ve been married for a little over a year now, and I have never had orgasm I’ve come close to it many times but never reached it.

Anyways, I posted my dilemma on never being able to orgasm and someone recommended a vibrator and my husband and I tried it.

At one point without realizing it I peed at first I thought maybe I squirted but when I smelt it, it did smell like pee and I was really happy that I even got to that stage of experiencing that much pleasure even tho I didn’t completely climax I was the closest I’ve ever came

My husband once he realized I peed on myself completely changed the mood and was so upset and I’m just so disappointed it’s not like it’s something I had any control over. His reaction wasn’t what I thought it would be. He was disgusted.I hoped he’d being more confronting and kind rather than make me feel bad 😔

I don’t know how can I express to him that he really made me feel terrible and I feel like I can’t ever allow myself to feel as vulnerable again with, which sucks because I have the feeling that in order to reach an orgasm I’ll have to allow myself to be vulnerable.

Maybe I’m being emotional but I’m so sad.