Anxiety and depression creeping on me

6:01am My heart feels heavy and tears are coming down my face as I type this .. I start to hyper ventilate and my mind is filled with regret and pain ... I made the decision to have a child with a man that is so manipulative to my mind .. Very sweet passionate loving man but can flip his switch in .2 seconds ... I’m awake early for this man ... preparing him lunch to start his day at work ... I was feeling a little extra nice this morning and got up even earlier to make him some cinnamon tea and nice hot breakfast ... I let him know what I’ve made for him but sorry it’s not how his mom use to make him so guess what ? He left to work pissed off after yelling at me that I made it wrong. He took the entire breakfast that I prepared him as well as his tea out of his lunch bag and left it on the counter and took off to work . Tell me if I’m wrong but that is definitely not the way anyone should go about that kind of situation. My mother and father raised me to ALWAYS be respectful and considerate to any kind of circumstance. It’s a kind gesture from the heart... I didn’t have to do anything honestly and when I do it literally ruined my ENTIRE day . I feel as if I just walked right through the door of depression all over again. I’ve never been so disgusted by another persons actions in my entire life. Clearly these are huge deal breakers when it comes to me and him being together. Most definitely I DO NOT want my son to be raised thinking something like that is okay just because his mother raised him to be and just because he thinks his actions are appropriate. 😢