Hindsight -TW, loss

Last Monday 11/30 I went in to confirm pregnancy, the doctor saw a sac, heard the heartbeat. I was 6+6. The doctor asked if I wanted a video...and like a dummy I said no I just wanted the pictures. How much I wish I would have said yes. Besides positive pregnancy tests, I have no other evidence that this little one even existed. None. Because after I said no to a video the machine messed up, and wouldn’t print anything, then the assistant said “we’ll just have to owe you”. Little did she realize that she would never be able to owe me. On 12/2 I miscarried. 😞 I went back in on 12/4 and the doctor confirmed that I had miscarried. I know the past is the past, but I’m just thinking a lot about it right now. Very sad. This would have been our first. How do you just “try again”? Like this little life never existed??