How to do i get over a break up?

I know time heals but it seems so impossible. He was my best friend and the person i told everything to. I feel like i got my heart ripped out and i have no one to talk about it to bc he was my person. I feel like i will never find true love again especially during covid. I let my guard down for him and now i feel like even if i do find someone i will have a wall built up. He was my first love so I’ve never been through a breakup this bad before.

My mom hugged me for over an hour telling me if was gonna be alright but it seems so hard. It’s taking everything in me not to crawl back to him even though i want to. I can’t sleep at night bc I’m just thinking about everything we used to have and now I’ve lost it. I wish i did things a little differently.

I have 2 big finals today and i feel like i can’t even focus because I’m so broken.