Eating Disorder + Pregnancy

I am 7 weeks pregnant with my rainbow baby, and am super anxious. My bulimia has relapsed, and I’m trying my best not to let the physical symptoms take over for the baby, but my mind is in a dark place and I keep having Mia thoughts. I started spotting today and I am not in a good place at all 😞

Any other Mumma’s out there struggling with an eating disorder?

FYI- my eating disorder is not about weight, it is about control. I feel very out of control right now as I don’t know if my rainbow will make it. I also vomit when I’m anxious. I am trying my best to not with my baby, and it’s not so much the physical side I’m struggling with atm. Please don’t leave mean comments- I just want to find support and see if there are any other Mumma’s going through the same thing 😢