Kept A Secret

Me and my best friend have been best friends since freshman year of high school nine years ago. Today was the first time that I told her I was sexually assaulted as a sophomore in high school. It came up because we were discussing another friend who was accused of rape. So I simply shared my experience with her and let her know that while I do consider it sexual assault I was drunk and I was the one who invited the guy to come cuddle with me. I was trying to get her to understand that when people are drunk they could be convinced to do almost anything.  And just because a girl was on top doesn’t mean that she was not raped. She replied to some other message I sent around the same time about a juice cleanse but she never responded to what I had to say about the rape/sexual assault. This was about four hours ago. I feel weird now because this is the first time I shared this with my her and while it might not have been best way to share it with her, it was the only way I knew how to. I’m not the one to just bring up oh yeah I was sexually assaulted. I just don’t know how to feel about the fact that she basically disregarded the whole message. I understand she could be processing it but to respond to one message and not the other, was just kind of shitty in my opinion. And its not like I want her sympathy or her to feel bad for me, I just want her to acknowledge what I said because it was so hard for me to talk about it. I’m also an over thinker so it’s all I’ve done for the past few hours.