Honestly I'm not sure if I just need to vent, if I'm looking for advice, if I'm looking for a mama or two who have experienced the same thing.....or a combination of all three but here it goes.

I'm a first time mom and my son is almost 16 months old. He has always been very high needs. Very colicky when he was an infant until about 4 months, and has just been overall grumpy/clingy ever since then.

Even at 16 months he is very clingy...cries all the time....I can't leave a room or even get up to do something without him screaming and wanting to be picked up.

I just feel like I have an unhappy baby/toddler and I feel like a bad mom. I see all these pictures and videos and posts with all these happy go lucky kids and it honestly makes me feel like I'm missing out on a part of motherhood. Like I'm always just waiting for that next step and for him to get a little older so I can communicate with him better to figure out why he always seems so upset.

He's not talking yet, so I know that's likely a big part of it. He can't communicate his wants and needs and gets frustrated.

I don't know...This all just feels really heavy tonight and I needed to get it all out I guess...