Heartache

I am currently 10 wks pregnant with my second child- my oldest is almost 11 yrs old (boy) so I am starting all over again. My sons father and I separated when he was about 2 yrs old but he has remained very involved in his life and I love him for that. I had always promised myself that I would not have another child out of wedlock and would do things "the right way". Well, I am pregnant by someone who I have been dating for 6 mths, we weren't "officially" bf/gf since he never really asked me to be his gf but it felt as though we were since we were always together, met each other's family and would refer to me as his girlfriend (and vice versa) well today he told me he was not "ready to be in a serious relationship" this is his 1st child and he has taken me on an emotional roller coaster. One day he's happy, one day he's, mad etc.. After he told me that he doesn't want anything to do with me I felt like he stabbed me in the heart. His family is thrilled about the baby but my family is not supportive. I am 30 yrs old and have a successful career so financially not being able to raise my 2 kids is not a worry. My heartache is that here I am carrying a child who will not be raised in a family setting because he/she will be split between mom and dads house. Something I promised myself I would not want to happen. I can't rewind time and change the past, we made a stupid choice and are now paying the consequences. Any one have advice on how to cope with this situation and get over the hurt and pain WHILE pregnant? I am trying to be strong but I find myself breaking down and crying constantly. I'm afraid that all this stress will affect my innocent peanut. 😪😪