Do I break up with him?

Found out for the 5th time he’s paying cam girls. But this time he said “how can I say this without you taking this the wrong way?” I only bought minutes this time” (this isn’t even the only problem but this is the most recent)

I believe he buys 1 on 1 so basically he gets on cam too. ITS PROBABLY GETTING CLOSE TO 30 GIRLS NOW.

We are long distance, the first excuse was I wasn’t doing it enough for him,

but the new excuse now is that he’s stressed from college and money. He was even considering dropping a class because he said he couldn’t afford it.

Where I’m at: I’m stuck on breaking up with him or not, being with him in person is amazing a feeling I’ve never felt. The best feeling ever, he’s a better guy when I’m with him. I don’t wanna lose that

Over the phone he’s less caring or amazing, kinda does a 180 sometimes, especially breaking promise after promise.

I came close to breaking up with him but I had a full blown panic attack. I don’t want him to leave me. I get that terrible feeling in my chest (maybe you’ve felt it) it causing me to stop eating because I can’t keep anything down. And it lasts it doesn’t go away.

I can’t deal with that, I’d rather not. It’s too much.

It’s almost like a compromise I’d rather him cheat and have that feeling over with than leaving him and having it non stop constantly.

I had a bf when I was younger and when he broke up with me, that terrible feeling lingered for over a year+ and I managed to lose 30lbs and get underweight.

I know it would be worse with this bf since I’ve been with him for 4 years now and the other was just a middle school thing.

Please help what do I do.